Feelings after Roka

The feeling of isolating yourself & going through everything by yourself 😥 You’re strong as hell, here’s your reminder - cause probably no one told you that. You’re strong, I see you! 🙌🏻 . I still remember watching Dear Zindagi & not being able to really understand what really is going on with Kaira. & it’s just that, these are emotions no one will ever understand until faced by themselves. My heart goes out for Kaira every time I come across any Dear Zindagi edits, movie snippets, re-watching the movie itself. It’s not easy to not only understand her situation, but also relate to it 💔 For those who still don’t understand, depression/mental illness is real, and it’s no joke. We’re not seeking for any attention. We’re not feeling okay, we can’t sleep, we get frustrated easily, we can’t cope up with life, we stay in bed cause getting up & facing the world feels way too difficult, we have random breakdowns - none of which is in our control 😓 Sometimes it’s not just a ...

Jab hum apne aap ko achi tarah samajh lete hain toh dusre kya samajhte hain, it doesn't matter, not at all." Oftentimes, the fear of being judged by others cages us and keeps us away from living life wholeheartedly. There are so many decisions that we refrain from taking because we burden ourselves with the respnosiblity of becoming the apple of everyone's eye. What we forget is that people tend to have different perspectives and what is right from our viewpoint may be wrong from someone else's. So, we shouldn't let that sort of insecurity torment us. We often lived with the fear of being judged because we thought that getting into more than one relationship will give people the opportunity to point fingers at her. When we were given the chair example, we wished everyone else heard that too so that we could live without the fear of being judged. But it wasn't necessary for people to believe what we believed. Sometimes life taught us on how everything becomes wo...

Dear myself, I am sorry I am sorry because even when you didn't want to smile, i made to fake a laugh just so that people dont need to care for me. I am sorry because whenever you wanted some time to heal, I self doubted and hurt you more. I am sorry that you tried to stay strong even in the worst days. I am sorry that you healed others even when you were not okay. I am sorry for loving you less that what you deserved. I am sorry that you gave all your time and effort to others who never cared about you You are very strong, really strong. You smiled even when your heart cried. I promise i wont dissapoint you and i will never let anyone hurt you again

It is 2 am and I cannot help overthink every decision I have made in the last few days. I can’t help but ask myself, ‘when is this going to be okay?’ Or ‘does it get better?’ And in between these moments, I cannot keep my sanity intact. I wonder if it is just overthinking or is this my gut feeling telling me something? On somedays, it feels like both, but today it is all clouded by anxiety and there’s nothing but worry. Where do I go from here? Where does all this go from here? Do I find myself again or should I try harder? It is 2 am and I am trying really hard already, so tell me when does this all get better?